25-01-09

Going into English

As I have made my account on facebook, and as the general language of communication is English, I decided to start writing on my blog again, but in English. If I had more time I would use two languages, but don't think it would work for me. Not enough patience Schamen

As I said in one of my earlier posts, facebook has opened up a whole new way for me. Meeting old friends again, meeting new friends, getting support from people you do not even know personally but who in one way or another have followed your way through personal difficult times, and are contacting me personally to have a talk and give me hope and courage to go on. It is truly amazing. At times I still cannot believe it myself.

The road in the mean time hasn't become any easier. At the moment I am going through a strange phase in my life. Good things together with bad things mixed up to a strange composition of  confusing  ( to my mind anyway) happenings, that I have to give a place in my life now. I am learning every day, but the best thing I have learned is PATIENCE. An enormous amount of it. I hope I will get rewarded for all this patience I have with  certain people.

Sometimes I think by myself, "are they actually worth it", and then I want to do, say or write something very impulsively ( I'm Taurus..so provocation or things not going the way I want them to go, does not work too well with me). Then I put a hold on that impulsiveness, take a few steps back and think to myself..." yes, they are actually worth it". Let me say by the way that I have this with very few people. Only special people in my life can get away with almost anything. Others, which I don't have a real connection with , but to whom I still would have been "polite", as good manners go, are now OUT of my books. I refuse to put my energy there, and will not play the "hypocritical, but socially correct, person anymore. NO WAY!

So that's where I am at the moment. Confused, tired of all the "divorce-mess" that still hasn't got one step further, a bit hurt as well, but all in all , I now I'll get there someday....perhaps not soon, but someday... And hat knowledge is enough for now. ( Actually, it has to be, there's not much I can do about it anyway, so...)

 

 

17:23 Gepost door Crisje in In My Head | Permalink | Commentaren (4) |  Facebook |

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oei dat wordt moeilijk om dan je blog nog te volgen
ben niet zo thuis in de engelse taal
groetjes

Gepost door: Borriquito | 25-01-09

dan toch maar twee-talig?

Gepost door: Crisje | 25-01-09

Crisje keep on going, I know you will win

xxx

Gepost door: Viv | 25-01-09

Always look at the bright side of life I'm lucky, it is not in Portugese.

;-)

Gepost door: ms | 26-01-09

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